Sunday, September 16, 2012

The end is near

35.5 weeks

I am going to be a mother of two, in just 4 short weeks.  It's still strange to me that I am old enough for this stuff.  I have been married for 6 years, own a home, my husband has a masters degree and a real life career, and we (will) have 2 kids.  Since when am I not 19?  It's crazy and I love it.  I feel blessed to be living the life I always dreamed of as a child.

Some days d-day can't come soon enough, others I feel like I need some more time.  I officially waddle, have full on belly cleavage hanging out of the bottom of all of my shirts, pee 5 times a night, can't sit up unassisted, have gained 20 lbs, and have a son in there that moves like a maniac.  All in all everything is going extremely well though!  My energy levels are higher than they have been in a while, I'm much more comfortable than I was at this point in my pregnancy with Lucy, and I am glad to have most things ready for the baby's arrival. 

It's been really fun to make his crib, wash his blankets and clothes, get the car seat, baby swing, and other accessories out and prepped, and sit in his room imagining what it will be like to cuddle him in there.  I've also tried to re-read some of Babywise.  I really hope I can get him sleeping as well as Lucy did, from a young age. Fingers crossed!

The little man doesn't have a name yet.  He probably won't until he is here.  We have a list that we like, all super traditional, normal names.  I can hardly wait to see his little face!  I wonder if he will look like his sister, or like his dad.  I wonder what color eyes and hair he will have.  With the combination of our family's genes, it could be anything really.  I can't wait to hold him, smell him, and experience that indescribable mother/child bond for the second time in my life.

I'm a little nervous about nursing him.  That was by far the most difficult part of having a newborn for me, last time.  I had terrible wounds, bleeding, clogs, and infections, and I'm just worried that is going to happen again.  For the first 6 weeks, every time Lucy would latch on, my eyes would water and my toes would curl.  It was so painful.  I'm so glad I stuck it out though.  I really did love breast feeding her and I saw the benefits of it, first hand.  I nursed Lu for 13 months, she never had formula even one single time, and I plan on doing the same thing with this baby.

It's funny, part of me feels like I have never done this before.  I went to pack my hospital bag the other day, and I had no clue what to put in there.  I felt much more confident about the little things with Lucy.  I think it's because I had been reading a million books for the 9 months before she came, and I had a set plan for everything.  I haven't really had time to think about any of that this time around and I kind of feel like I'm winging it a little bit.  I also think part of it is that Lucy was the most amazing newborn ever- she NEVER cried, slept like a dream from the beginning, ate extremely well, etc.  I never had to deal with any set backs or problems with her and I'm a little nervous things won't go quite as easily this time around, and that I won't know what to do to help him if that's the case.  I know, I'm weird.

I have really been trying to soak up the remainder of my alone time with Lucy.  She is so fun right now and I want to try to take her all in and remember every little detail.  She is so smart, beautiful, funny, and amazing.

Anyway, we are so excited for this little boy to be part of our family!  He will be an added blessing that I know I won't be able to live without.

Here he is in action:


The Risdons said...

I love your candid honesty. Every baby is so different who knows what to expect. My first was an angel baby like Lucy. I didn't even do babywise or a schedule and he was perfect. Emmy was the baby from hell. That's why it took me 5 years to have Madi. I can tell you're a great, loving mom to Lucy. You will be awesome with two! It's hard but obviously so worth it!!!

Whitney said...

So excited for little brothers arrival!

You have to love the belly cleavage, right? The last two weeks I was pregnant with Bennett, It was nearly impossible to find shirts that would cover the bottom, even my maternity ones!

I totally felt the same way as you did. I kind of winged it, even though I had done it all before, I somehow forgot. You will do amazing with another newborn & truly are one of the best mamas I know!

Verna said...

Aww! I love the video! It makes me miss those days! I had about 6 weeks of VERY painful breastfeeding also. The 2nd time it was 4 weeks and super painful in the beginning but by twoish weeks it was a lot better!

Benjaman and Alexandria Brown said...

I know how you feel! I am always worried that I can't get lucky and have two perfect babies! And I always think I won't know what to do if one of the doesn't just do everything as easily as Felicity did! Just remember that the reason Lucy is so wonderful has a lot to do with the great job you did! You will be just as good the second time! Congrats and Good Luck!

Chris and Mari Spiker said...

That video is still so crazy. I am so excited for this little man to arrive & I hope you know you are a pregnancy hero! LOVE YOU!

Rachel said...

That video is amazing! Makes me nostalgic about being pregnant, for sure. I can't wait to meet the little guy. I hope he has tons and tons of hair like Josh!