Friday, April 1, 2011

So long sweet swaddle

The time has come for us to say goodbye to Lucy's beloved swaddle. I know this probably seems over due (seeing that she is 6 months old) and like no big deal to everyone except me, Josh and Lucy, but it really is a big deal for us. It means our baby is growing up and it breaks my heart. I knew that this would have to happen eventually, and that I would never be ready for it. Lucy has loved being wrapped up all tight since birth. I think it's because she was living in such tight quarters, inside me for so long. Her swaddle always made her feel safe and comforted. It calmed her instantly when she would start to get upset before bedtime. It was our go-to source of relief. She would get so excited when we would start to swaddle her and was always so happy and calm when she was all wrapped up. It was her sleep cue and it worked wonders. We had a little bedtime routine. We would bathe, put jammies on, read, do kisses and loves, etc., then we would swaddle her and lay her in her crib and press her little glow seahorse. Instantly she would turn slightly to her right, arch her back and conk out. It was hilarious. She would fall asleep instantly once she was snug in her little cocoon. She looked like my own little caterpillar when she was swaddled. Her face always looked so cute and fat sticking out of the top of her little burrito wrapped body. Oooooh, I love her.

Our pediatrician told us that once she could roll over we needed to stop swaddling her. Two months later, we have listened to her advice. We tried to take it away a couple of times, but poor little Luc just wasn't ready. She would cry and seemed so confused as to why she was in her crib without her wrap. She never would fall asleep and it was miserable for all of us. So, we kept swaddling her. We would leave her legs out sometimes to try to ween her of it.

Eventually she started rolling over, and waking herself up, several times a night. Once it started to affect her sleep in a negative way, we decided it was time for a change. We started with her morning nap, just to see how it would go. I was dreading this. She fussed and whined for about 5 minutes, but fell asleep! Her nap only lasted about an hour and 15 minutes, but it was waaaay better than I expected. She continued to surprise us by falling right to sleep, and eventually her naps got longer and longer. It took about a week for her to start sleeping through the night again. Her naps are now getting back up to between 2 and 3 hours and she is doing great (most of the time)! She is so funny. We put a couple extra binkies in her crib so she can always find one. A few times when I've gone in to get her, she'll have one in her mouth and one in each hand. As much as I have missed and will miss seeing her little face poking out of her swaddle, I do love seeing her tiny little body in her cute jammies all the time. She sleeps on her tummy now and her bum just looks so cute in her jams, I love it!

Part of me feels terribly guilty for taking something she loved so very much away from her. I know it seems so small but it was the first time I had to make a hard choice in her behalf. I feel like she has grown up so much over the past week and that I forced it upon her- I hate that. I washed her swaddles and folded them for the last time two nights ago. My eyes were watering and I wanted so badly to go get her from her crib and wrap her up again. I always want her to be my sweet little tiny baby, and I felt like she was still so new when she was all bundled up. So, I've been mourning the fact that my baby is growing. Things are changing and it really is truly wonderful, a blessing really, but it kills me sometimes.

She gets more and more fun every single day. She laughs and plays with me. She grabs my face and gives me a big wet open mouthed kisses. She smiles every time I look at her. She loves to nurse and to cuddle with me in our rocking chair. She thinks the wind is hilarious, it's so funny to watch. She loves to be outside! She really is a happy little girl. It brings bliss to my heart to see her enjoying everything around her. She is so smart and I can't wait to see what she chooses to do with her life. I have so enjoyed having Lucy as my daughter. She has been the greatest source joy Josh and I have ever known. She is a wonder and we love her to the moon and back.

Lucy's swaddle journey from birth to 6 months:

And now, without her swaddle. Could her arms be any cuter? Seriously.

Lucy happy as a clam, all wrapped up. Don't mind the red eye, I had the night vision on, or the booger in her eye. Kinda gross.


Kevin and Julie's Blog said...

Aww she is so cute! You are such a good mom, some women were meant to be moms and you are one of them!

Julie said...

oh my goodness gracious, that girl is so so cute! I love the little video of her! And I know what you mean...about ALL of it. I had the same feelings but I think the choice you made was good. I had to do the same thing with Owen because he started rolling over. You are such a great mom and I love seeing pictures of sweet Lucy!

Kellie Spiker said...

baby coos are the best sound in the world!